Yay me!! I finally found my blog! Yes....I said found. I haven't posted in a while because not only did I forget the login info, I totally forgot the website that contains my wonderful blog. I have wanted to write for a while. Today seems like a great day to start blogging....again.
"I had a bad day" isn't even close on this day. I've had some pretty bad days in my short life (trust me) and this one is right up there with them. I was off work with 2 of my sweet boys who have strep for the second time in the last 3 weeks. I am still trying to recover from severe sinus infection, bronchitis, UTI, and possible kidney stones. Needless to say I woke up tired and exhausted. After fighting with Luke that yes he does have to go to school and no he can't wear shorts today and his hair really isn't sticking up in the back and if he doesn't get dressed he will go to school in his pajamas....he finally made it out the door with his daddy and Ian to school. Titus still asleep and Zeke cuddled up watching wrestling means Mommy can do that wonderful thing we all want to but never get to....crawl back under the covers and go back to sleep. After a bowl of cocoa pebbles I did just that. Around 11:00 I heard the boys waking up so I thought I should get up. It's a dreary rainy day but I had no idea of the events that were to unfold. Apparently I was sleeping oh so well that I didn't hear my phone blowing up with FB notifications and texts. I now wish I still didn't have to see or hear them!! Waking up to what I did is not fun at all. I soon learned that a dear friend had been killed in a car accident. It is still so surreal......just got a message from him yesterday.......our kids are playing baseball against each other Saturday. I think it really didn't sink in until tonight when I grabbed the phone to text a funny picture like we'd done so many times over the past couple of months. So many questions?!?
I was changing my sweet little Titus and discovered that he STILL has a fever. I hear a crazy noise and walk into my kitchen just in time to see my big swing fly by the window in my backyard. I didn't even know it was supposed to be bad weather. I then rush to Park to get the big boys all the while praying that I don't run out of gas in the carpool line. Chad calls and tells me how bad it is in Curry. That's it for phone calls for a while! Can't reach my parents or sister.....or in-laws and not even an answer at Curry Ace. Keep hearing sirens and seeing posts on FB about damage and wrecks, etc. Finally track everyone down and know that all is well......except my 16 yr old niece who we learn has had a wreck. Sis is told she's OK but no one can get anywhere because of all the damage and stuff. All of the sudden my phone works fine and Debbie (who I guess would now technically not be my mother-in-law anymore but was never really just that anyway.......she is and for the last 14 years has been like a second mother and dear friend to me and I pray will continue to be that) calls and says she's on her way to my house. She took my boys and I went to the Walker Baptist ER to see about my niece and sister. The ER is not a happy place for me(I'm sure it isn't for most). Memories of strokes, cut open knees, etc, etc, come flooding back. I get through the breakdown quickly and go inside just in time to see them getting to leave......Thank you God!! Brianna is fine....just a little banged and shaken up. The car not so much but that will be dealt with later. To the lady in the white minivan that my sweet niece rear ended.... you should be more than ashamed!! This person didn't even bother to stop in the middle of the horrible storm when a car hit her from behind. I guess she didn't feel the car that hit the back of her van so hard that the whole front is completely smashed and didn't notice the back part of her van dragging on the road as she left the scene of an accident. I guess she also didn't notice the poor 16 yr old girl crying and scared to death as she crawled out of her car in the pouring rain and horrible straight line winds. Thank you to the kind lady who did help her. Most of all thanks to God that she is OK!! She is now cuddled up in one of my boys' beds sleeping peacefully since they didn't have power. I've heard from most of my family and friends and think that most are fine and only some minimal damage. Lots without power but thankful everyone is ok. I'm not real sure where I was going with all that. I think I mainly needed to get it all out. I just feel so blessed tonight! I just can't ever get over how AWESOME our God is!! He works through everything....mess and all! A good friend said in a text....."you've had more than your share". She of course meant bad things happen lately but I've been thinking about that all night. Sure I guess I have but I've also had more than my share of good things and blessings. It just all about perspective. People tell me all the time "you're so strong" .......that's a big fat NEGATIVE!! My strength comes from the Lord and only from Him!! I have to totally rely on Him for strength and peace and joy. I question Him all the time and have learned that's ok because that how I learn. I learn to view things with a positive Godly perspective and to TOTALLY trust Him.
Why did i have a stroke at 26 that totally turned my world upside down??? Who knows, but I've learned more than one could imagine and been able to use that to help people in ways I'd never imagine.
Why did my husband decide to leave me and our family for a little teenage girl?? Who knows, but again I've learned so much. I've grown closer to God than ever before. I 've made friends and formed relationships I wouldn't have otherwise. I learned what it means to truly forgive. I don't regret our relationship........without it I wouldn't have the 4 boys that are my world!! I got to experience love.......everyone doesn't. I got to be a wife.......not all women get to experience that. I got a whole other family that i love like my own. I hate the way things have turned out but know God's ways and plans are perfect.
Why are my kids constantly sick?? Who knows, but I am blessed they are here and I get to take care of them.
I guess I'm starting to ramble now. I'm sure some will be offended and I'll get talked about for my honesty like I have in the past. All I can say is that It is what it is!! The truth hurts sometimes but it's better than being lied to. I'm tired of deception. I have no intentions of hurting anyone or making anyone look bad. i could have done plenty of that and still could if I wanted but it's not worth it!! 2 wrongs don't make a right!! Might make ya temporarily feel better but soooo not worth it in the end. This is my blog. If my thoughts offend anyone or make anyone feel bad......I'm sorry! If one feels bad......probably your own fault! You have chosen to read this.....if you don't want to hear the truth or something bothers you---don't read anymore! I guess Facebook and Pinterest comments could be a little different???? You might accidentally see things but this is read by choice and it is mine and I will say exactly what I feel!!! That will be the truth..........the truth shall set you free!!! =) Anyway, kudos to you if you've stuck it out and read all this! I promise future posts won't be this bad! Please check back! I will post pics of boys soon. I want to leave some verses with you.
Here are more than my share of verses that have blessed me lately....
(some are the paraphrased by Brandi edition)
*** "God can do more than we can ever hope for or imagine...." Ephesians 3:20
*** "I can do ALL things through Christ who gives me strength." Phil 4:13
*** "Psalm 56
***"Let us not grow weary in doing good, for in due season we will reap if we do not give up." Galatians 6:9
***"....weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning." Psalm 30:5
